AITA for going no-contact with my parents after learning they had lied to me about my allergies all my life?
note: im not OOP - OOP is u/TroubleInGluten on r/AmItheAsshole
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trigger warning(s): death, food-based trauma
mood spoilers: hopeful
ORIGINAL POST - JUNE 13, 2020
Hey everyone. I am 19 years old and my parents are in their 50s.
For as long as I can remember, I have been allergic to several things:
- Dairy
- Wheat/Flour/Gluten
- Legumes
Since I was a young child, my parents have completely kept all of them out of our house. While other kids ate breakfast cereals, I ate fish and assorted pickled vegetables for breakfast. While other kids had Lunchables, I had grilled chicken or fish with, again, assorted vegetables (usually sweet potatoes). While other kids ate birthday cake at the birthday party, I had an apple.
I never questioned this until a couple of months ago. I was at my aunt's house for my birthday party, and she made brownies for everyone. For me, she took great steps to make them with almond flour and avoided all of my allergies. I started eating them and thought little of it until my aunt suddenly looked at me and, in a panicked way, asked which plate I took the brownies from. I pointed from the one where I got my brownies, and she immediately stood up and told me we had to get my EpiPen. She raced to ask my mother for it, and I sat there scared out of my mind because I had never mistakenly eaten flour before.
I noticed my mother had calmed her down, and then she said that we don't have to worry because she had switched the plates of brownies, and after all I had eaten the ones made with almond flour. I found this incredibly odd because, really, why would she swap the plates? That doesn't even make sense. But for the time being I let the issue rest.
It didn't sit well with me for about a week and I finally went to get an allergy test. The doctor started with a skin prick test, and lo and behold, I didn't react to any of the above substances. Then he ordered a blood test, and when the results came in, they said that I had absolutely no intolerance to any of the foods I'm supposed to be allergic to.
I was furious and called my mother. She eventually admitted that she lied to me because she wanted me to be on a paleolithic diet, and wanted me to be able to avoid all temptations. She raised me with a lie about her own health, but she keeps insisting that I try to see it from her perspective. She spams my phone with messages about how healthy I am--that I never had acne, that I have been in great shape my whole life, that I have strong teeth and bones, and even that I got onto a D1 college tennis team.
She has started calling me ungrateful for her intervention and insisting that I really should be glad I never got "carb addicted." I don't know what to think. I carried around an EpiPen for all those years--one that I suspect may be fake seeing as my mother never got me to replace it--and I don't even know anymore.
Am I the asshole and an ungrateful son for losing it over this?
VERDICT: OOP was voted NTA
RELEVANT COMMENTS
when asked if his parents ever used the epipen
gayfordaisies
NTA at all, but I gotta know; did they ever use your epipen on you to keep up the lie? I’m kinda figuring yes, since pretty much every kid with a food allergy has to use one at some point since shit happens even when they’re careful. Like, it’s already awful behavior on their part that borders on abusive if not is abusive outright, but that would be a whole new level of f’ed up...
OOP: Not in my recollection. They were always super careful with my diet, going to extremes such as almost never eating out.
other details about his childhood and what happened after he found out the truth
DesertEagleBennett
Absolutely positively not the asshole. She can't raise her kid on a lie and expect him to be on with it, no matter how you turned out. You missed out on sweets as a kid and Lunchables, which are wonderful. And I feel like she lied about switching the plates just to calm her down. She wouldn't have known which plate you were gonna eat from.
OOP: In her defense (and I know it's weird trying to defend her here), but she went above and beyond in helping me grow up relatively "normally." She baked alternative desserts for me and during my birthday parties as a child would feed the other kids normal cake. I never really felt left out or that I was missing out on anything because I had no metric by which to judge flour.
On the other hand, I ate an actual cheeseburger for the first time after learning I had no allergy, and there is no replacement for that. I almost cried over a double bacon cheeseburger.
UPDATE - JULY 11, 2020
Hey again everyone. Here is my original post:
Perhaps against my better judgment, I decided that I would re-open a line of communication with my mother. I know this was not recommended by anyone in the post at all, but I just decided that I really wanted to have a relationship with her. I wanted her to see why what she did was so incredibly wrong and crossed so many lines, on top of wanting to be her son again.
I texted her a few days after I made my original post and told her that I was willing to talk if she [A] did not say anything until I had my say, [B] didn't gaslight me into thinking what she was doing was right, and [C] truly considered my perspective. She agreed instantly. We set up a video chat at that point, where I explained many of the wonderful points people in this community brought up in my original post:
- What if I had really accidentally taken in one of the foods I was supposed to be allergic to? (Absurdly irresponsible of her)
- Did she ever stop to consider that I, sitting there at another kid's birthday party chowing down on a fucking apple while the other kids ate cake, might just feel out of place? (Inconsiderate)
- How could she have the nerve to suggest that my hard work and having a god-damned tennis racket practically glued to my hand since I was four was the reason why I'm such a successful athlete, but rather it was because I didn't eat gluten? (Dismissive of my accomplishments)
- How could she have lied not only to me, but to our family as well? (Dishonest)
- Why didn't she just talk to me instead of raising me on a lie? (Underhanded)
By the end of my rehearsed talk, my mother was straight-up ugly crying. This was not exactly what I expected, but she apologized and said that she had been terrible. It was a huge leap from her previous response to my indignation. She told me everything I said was right, and asked if I would listen to her reason why she did so.
Before I was born, my mother had a much older brother. I knew about him, but never heard specifics on what happened to him. Apparently he basically ate himself to death. He was so obese and food addicted that he was beyond help. He passed away when my mother was pregnant with me. They were close. It had a huge effect on her. She rationalized that lying would be better for me. When I brought up the fact that she didn't lie once, but for my entire life, she acknowledged that she truly had no excuse.
This did not give me complete closure, but at least I got it. I am talking to my mother and father again. My father also apologized, although he has tried to maintain that he was more of an accomplice who tried to talk her out of it. That's another fight for another day.
RELEVANT COMMENTS
the reason why the dad went along with it
iluvcats17: What is your dad’s reason for going along with the lie? It seems to me that you and him also need a big talk.
OOP: I think he's a product of his time and culture where women ran the house and everything within those walls was left up to my mother.
when asked how his food journey has been going
Duckadoe: I'm glad you had a productive conversation with your parents, that was really mature of you. Also, how has it been trying new foods?
OOP: Great! Crunch Wrap Supremes from Taco Bell are one of my favorites.
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