thirst traps, mocking ,messy break up , cheating. i need help.
okay so here's the story. i had an girl in my class 18M 18F. i loved her i liked her so much that i would do anything for her and she was not much of an angel or anything it was just that i was going through and breakup with my first girlfriend and she helped me comforted me and alot of shit. so i fell in love with her eventually. here our story starts we talk with each other everyday and one day we held hands.
we both felt something but she always said i dont want a relationship and still led me on held my hands hung out with me while i was clear with my feelings and told her i want a relationship. one day we got a little physical in a theathre and then we danced held hands hugged in a park. next day she ghosted me for 2 months giving me a shit reason. i couldnt move on i tried i fucking tried. and i did a mistake i found a new girl to move on from this one ik its wrong and unethical but i did what i had to. and just after i was about to move on she came back. left again. came back again.
this happened for 3 months and i kept going back to that innocent girl to move on every fucking time. ik its wrong but i did what i did and i regret this shit (also i didnt tell her i had a girl to move on). so here comes october its been about an year we know each other. she told me she loves me but says does not want any commitment. i feel happy bcz thats the first time she said she loved me. one day i brought her flowers and we went out to eat together. i checked her phone and i found a guy she found on hinge. she sent me and him the same sexual reel and i was hurt. fast forward to now. in jan she left me again and then came back 15th feb while i went back to that other girl as usual which had no play in this. we had an uni trip and i got caught. she found out i had a girl to move on and her ego was so hurt that she slapped me 6 times , kicked me and bcz i loved her i said nothing.
was it all my fault? now shes posting shit about me on her account mocking me and posting thirst traps with no bra on and her dress slipped out her shoulder. shes mocking my hieght (im short) and playing with my feelings. what do i do? mock her back? shes in my class i dont know how to move on too. idk what to do. all this happened and that other girl who was innocent got hurt so bad. she called that girl i had as backup and they both talked on call. tell me what to do now?