so very scared

I’ve (18F) been dealing with muscle twitches for about two months now. What started as an innocent twitch in my calf spread to my whole body, with random spot spasming lasting for about 1-2 seconds, then moving onto another muscle group. There are days when it’s less noticeable, but it annoys the crap out of me. Catching it on camera is impossible since it’s so short-lived and unpredictable. My legs twitch the most.

My next symptom is a heavy/fatigued leg. I feel like I am dragging my left leg, and I get terrible muscle cramps in my calves. The leg just feels different somehow, even when I’m lying down there is this odd feeling — stabbing pain, buzzing, or pressure.

I often feel off-balance, but I didn’t fall yet. Might be just because I am hyper-fixated on my gait, doubting my ability to walk. People closest to me didn’t notice anything, but I just felt awkward on my feet. I read that’s a common first symptom, which is very scary.

I have EMG scheduled for February, right after my 19th birthday. Wish me luck. Anxiety has been eating me alive. Feels like I haven’t lived properly since these neurological problems started, so I’m hoping for answers. I spent too many nights having panic attacks over this. I am truly at my limit. I am so tired.